"I've scraped the glass for crumbs/And asked the mirror for some truth..."

And I can't get away
And still I can't get close enough to you...

These last few weeks, I've learned a lot of things, including how to get closer to the person here on earth who matters the most to me. But at the same time, I can't get as close as I would like because there is a wall up. Actually, it's more like a chasm than a wall...a chasm with a very rickety bridge across it, which when crossed, allows for extremely intense experiences. Each of these experiences are prescious in their own right, but at the same time, after each of them is done, I'm left drained and confused again.

It's a constant reminder
Of what I can and cannot have
The smell, the taste, its all just fake
The truth is what I lack...

Each of these experiences brings with it an extremely complicated set of emotions. It brings the peace of being close again, with the confusion of loss, the intensity of passion and the sincerity of love. All of these emotions put together leave me feeling so lost in the sense that I'm not sure where to go from here. But in the same sense, they give me a sense of hope, showing me a glimpse of what the future may hold.

So I will keep on running
And keep my head above the ground
And I will look for you in places
You cannot be found

I will keep the faith and love burning, hoping to see this trial through to something beautiful oncen again.

--Kaylea