"Goodnight My Angel, time to close your eyes/And save these questions for another day..."

There are certain things that a girl just continues to wonder about, no matter how well they are explained to her. Like why some people just seem to be blind to what they need to see the most, or how the time you really want someone to call you, they never seem to, or how even though you know someone Loves you with all their heart, soul and strength, when you haven't heard from them all day, it kind of makes you wonder/worry. I'm not upset; I just want to know what's going on. I want to know that you're okay.

Lord, please protect him and all that he does tonight; I'm not sure entirely why I am as worried as I am, aside from the failed calling attempts and things happening the way that they are.


Needing Him,
~*~K~*~

"Taste the saline rolling down your cheekbone..."

Sometimes, there's nothing left to do but cry. Even the Son of God cried...the shortest verse in the Bible..."Jesus wept." (John 11:35)

From the time we are very small, from the womb, almost, we are conditioned to cry when there are circumstances beyond our control, which we desperately want to take control of. This is very pertinent in my life at the moment; a situation is much beyond my realm of control and I feel like all there is left to do is cry. But I can't...I need to; but I can't. I should also allow myself to be picked up by Daddy and rocked in His huge arms, comforted by His strong heartbeat...wouldn't it be nice if life still worked like that, folks? Daddy picks you up, gives the booboo a kiss and folds you into a huge bear hug and all your worries just fade away? I know it's not THAT simple, but I also know that my God will do all of those things; they're just more subtle.

The kiss on your booboo (which instead of a scraped knee is a broken heart or shattered spirit) is instead an uplifting passage of scripture or an exceptionally powerful spiritual experience; the huge bear hug is no longer two huge arms enfolding you, but rather an entire congregation of believers helping to carry you through your problems.

Lord, please take this problem from my heart, mind and spirit. I don't want to have to deal with it anymore...I know that I am weak without you and have not the strength to stand up under my problems without you. I am holding out my arms; please scoop me up into Your powerful arms and allow me to feel comforted again, as I was as a young child, safe and secure with my Daddy.


Needing Him Desperately,
~*~K~*~

"Once again I look upon the Cross where You died...."

"...I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside..."

It's true. I am broken inside; and He will use that brokenness in order to bring glory to His Holy name. I know this now; I was fighting it before, but I realize now that I can indeed be used, no matter how battered and bruised I see myself as. Because no matter how many times I fall down and come crawling back to Him, Daddy will always pick me up again and set me right, setting me to His path "Once Again".

"...Once again I thank you....
Once again I pour out my life!!"

So the least I can do is live my life completely for Him and not look back. That's what this post is for; to let the world know that I am no longer holding back. I am thanking God for what He did in His Son, Jesus Christ. He has SAVED ME!! And I shout His praises forever from the tops of the heavens; I have renewed myself in Him and I am aiming to deepen my walk at His side. I want to tell all my unbelieving friends about the belief that has turned my life around. I will lift His name to the highest place of honor and sing His praises all the rest of the days of my life!!

"...Now you are, exalted to the highest place
King of the heavens, where one day I'll bow..."

One day I will join My Jesus in Heaven and look down upon all of those that I loved in this world, finally able to see what He had seen along: the influence I had (could have right now!!) on the people closest to me. While I'm here on Earth, though, I am simply to bask in the wonderment and awe and reverence of His Grace, that beautiful and FREE Gift of Salvation that He has given to all who would accept it!! OOOOH PRAISE BE TO GOD AND OUR LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST!!!

"...But for now, I marvel at this saving grace...
I'm full of praise once again!!"

There is nothing else left to say but thank you, once again, Jesus, for allowing each one of us the ultimate chance of a lifetime, literally, to be able to do the work of Your hands!! To be your blessed hands and feet, which were pierced all those years ago; and for what purpose? To hang You from a tree for MY TRANSGRESSIONS!! I don't understand it, but I am eternally grateful , literally. My eternity is grateful for the opportunity to spend it with Christ. It is B-E-A-U-tiful!! : )

"...Thank you for the Cross....
Thank you for the Cross My Friend!!!"

Needing Him and Serving Him,

~*~K~*~